The holidays

Everyone remembers the holidays from when you where a child. I had two sisters and a brother at home when I was growing up and I always loved the holidays. I can think back and still remembers how it use to smell. And even though we didn't have a lot of money we always had a good time. I remember we would all go over my grandma's house and my aunt and cousins would be there and we would just sit around and talk it all ways seemed like everything is perfect. Now as an adult I try and bring some of that to my house I can almost get the smell but I can not get the atmosphere right it just doesn't feel like the holidays with out my mother and siblings there . And this will be the first holiday with out my kids my daughter is going to be with her father and my son is already with his. " What do the lonely do at Christmas?"

Bored

I'm sitting here at work I just found out we have a internet room so I came in here on my lunch break to find out that we can not check our personal emails. That is crazy then it should be called the computer room because the control what sites you can go to. Right??? I need to start writing in my blogg everyday I donn't want to be like some of the people I know who puts a entry in once a month. I have been thinking about going and getting my hair permed but I like being natural even though my hair gives me the blues it is low maintanes and I like that even more. Me and my cousin said we were going natural together and I cut my hair off first that tramp went to Kansas City for the holidays and permed her shit can you belive that we said we were going to give it a year. I'm pissed off at her I have 3 more months before I reach one long and hard year of being natural.